Author Archives: msnewleaf

Hi everyone. I’ve been struggling with my resolve. I was feeling so strong. Then I went for a visit with my family, and it came out of nowhere. We were having a great time visiting, and my dad was drinking manhattans. And I just caved and drank. I honestly don’t know how to fend itContinue reading “Struggling”

I’m pretty excited to have reached Day 14 again. I haven’t been here for quite a while, and it feels good. Really good. Of course, as my friend Claire pointed out today (https://gettingsobernow.wordpress.com/2023/01/14/hearing-voices), the psychological cravings can really come out of nowhere right when you’re starting to feel good. (“Really, this is it? You’re neverContinue reading “Day 14 (Again!)”

Day 7. Still sober. I have been feeling really good. My blood pressure is down, I have more energy, and I’m getting lots of stuff done. On the other hand, I’m definitely still craving alcohol. Early days, of course, so to be expected. I was a little worried about it tonight, though, so I’m hereContinue reading “So far, so good”

Oh, I’m cranky tonight. First real craving to drink it away. The walls are closing in and I’m super touchy about everything. Lashing out is second nature. But, I’ve been here before and know it will be better in the morning. Staying sober and going to bed early. Day 4.

Yesterday, after I managed to get to my computer, I realized it was a work holiday. So, I went through my accumulated vacation emails to get a head start on today, then went back to bed. And slept for 4 more hours!!! I guess I needed it! The last time this happened was right afterContinue reading “Sleep!”

Day 2. The title says it all. It’s early morning, and I’m psyching myself up to greet the day. First day back to work, and work has been very stressful lately. But I’m not hungover! Which is a great thing. xoxo

It is always so difficult to come back to the blog after leaving it for months. I’ve been lurking around the edges, but I haven’t felt ready to come back until now. A lot has happened since last May. I have moved my family to that small town in the mountains – while still travelingContinue reading “On again, off again, over and over”

I woke up this morning feeling terrific. It was one of those days when you are so glad that you don’t drink anymore. Lots of energy, blue sky, and feeling good about the future. I started my new medication for my disease five days ago. So far, no terrible side effects. I have been moreContinue reading “Change is Good”

Here I am at Day 70! Things are still complicated in my life – my partner is coming home from rehab on Wednesday – but also slowing down a bit. I’m waiting to hear from middle schools for my daughter now. Work is in a temporary lull. The plans are being drawn up for myContinue reading “Day 70!”