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Writing out the numbers of my days is getting tedious. But this is how I started, so I must continue. My OCD won’t let me change it now. After the 30 days are up, though, all bets are off. Anyway, unfortunately, this is the 3rd day where I have desperately wanted to drink after work.Continue reading “Day Twenty-One: The monster within”

I’m two-thirds of the way to my original goal of 30 days. It has been a long 20 days. Lots of good stuff, but hard stuff, too. I’m still tired even though I get 8 hours of sleep most nights. I thought I would be bounding out of bed eager to greet the day byContinue reading “Day Twenty: The witching hour”

Just checking in to say that I am very grateful to not have hangovers. Or be worried I might still smell like booze when I go to work from the night before. Or that I might not be able to drive from the extra two drinks I had in the middle of the night whenContinue reading “Day Nineteen: No more hangovers!”

It has been almost three weeks now, and I’m feeling mostly good. Generally strong. I have been getting mild pangs for wine here and there, but that’s all they are. Mild pangs. Not huge cravings. And they pass quickly. This weekend, I’m going to hang out with my friend (one of my serious drinking buddies).Continue reading “Day Eighteen: Still going strong”

Just a quick check-in post to say I had a good, busy day, and I’m still sober. No big insights, but all is well. I’ll check back in tomorrow!

Yesterday was difficult. No doubt about it, but it all turned out OK. We had no electricity on our block from a huge storm (and I was feeling pretty blue), so we decided to go out for dinner in a restaurant where the lights were on. And it was good. Everyone was drinking beer exceptContinue reading “Day Sixteen: Life in slow motion”

It is one of those days when I feel anxious and lonely. Like I’m missing out on everything. Maybe it is just because it has been pouring rain all day, but I’ve been feeling super disconnected and insecure since mid-morning. And I would usually drink to get over my anxiety, but I can’t!! I mean,Continue reading “Day Fifteen: That knot in my stomach”

Two weeks! I’m feeling good (well, I still have a cold and feel yucky, but good with the not drinking). I really haven’t missed drinking today. Of course, it is still not yet the witching hour where I live so I know that could change. But, it’s OK. I know I’m not going to drinkContinue reading “Day Fourteen: Today, I am glad I am sober”

I’m still sober. Yay! I’m just checking in to say that since I promised myself I would write every day for the first 30 days. I have a cold and feel like garbage, though, so I’m heading to bed. More tomorrow.