Author Archives: msnewleaf

I live in a big city full of people that seem to mostly keep to themselves. It can be kind of lonely sometimes. Particularly in the middle of winter when it gets dark early. I have my family, of course, and my downstairs neighbors are close friends, but sometimes I just wish that we hadContinue reading “Loneliness and making changes”

Well, I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, and it hasn’t so far. I’ve been consistently feeling very good for a couple of weeks now with no black clouds in sight. I haven’t had the horrible “witching hour” cravings for ages now, and while I still have a craving now and then, it’sContinue reading “Day 62: Still good things!”

I have been having a really good week, and I thought I should write down the things that are good so I will remember when I feel blah again. Here goes: I feel much, much better now than when I was drinking. I have energy just buzzing from within. Really, sometimes it is almost uncomfortableContinue reading “All good things…”

Finally! It is Saturday (day 57!), and I can sit down to finish a post I started last Sunday. My weeks are so crazy busy that all I can do in the evenings after work is get everyone fed and collapse into bed with a book for a bit before my (very early) bedtime. But,Continue reading “What is it we really want to get from drinking?”

This morning, I was pouring milk for my coffee, and the milk splattered all over the counter and down the sides of my kitchen cabinets. And I thought, “Why?!?! Why do I do these things?” What happened was that I opened the milk from the wrong side last night, and during my efforts to getContinue reading “Why?!?!”

I’m not going to lie. I would really, really like to drink some red wine tonight. I won’t, but I would love to. Not to worry – I know that I can resist the craving. It isn’t actually all that strong. The problem is just that I’m feeling a little flat. There’s nothing really wrong.Continue reading “Feeling flat”

I guess this is the part where I start with the introspection. I woke up this morning with these thoughts: I would rather be up at 5 a.m. than at midnight. I hate parties unless I know everyone there or I am the one throwing the party. I am shy. I hate chit chat andContinue reading “Hello, who are you?”

That was a heavy post I wrote two days ago. For some reason, I felt the need to write it all out, the horrible stuff, and send it off into the past. Whew! That’s done now. On a totally different subject, I am really loving my new sober drink: strawberry and rose hips drinking vinegarContinue reading “And now for something a little lighter…”