I guess this is the part where I start with the introspection. I woke up this morning with these thoughts: I would rather be up at 5 a.m. than at midnight. I hate parties unless I know everyone there or I am the one throwing the party. I am shy. I hate chit chat andContinue reading “Hello, who are you?”
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And now for something a little lighter…
That was a heavy post I wrote two days ago. For some reason, I felt the need to write it all out, the horrible stuff, and send it off into the past. Whew! That’s done now. On a totally different subject, I am really loving my new sober drink: strawberry and rose hips drinking vinegarContinue reading “And now for something a little lighter…”
Goodbye, 2019, and Good Riddance!
I am glad to be seeing the end of 2019. This was a very tough year. It is almost funny, the number of awful things that happened this year. So many, in fact, that (counterintuitively) one very good thing came out of it: I decided to stop drinking. The first thing that happened was thatContinue reading “Goodbye, 2019, and Good Riddance!”
Christmas is Better Sober Because…
It is massively easier to make a bunch of decorated sugar cookies when you are not hungover. Staying up waiting for your sugared-up kid to FINALLY fall asleep (do you want Santa to come or not!?!?!) even though you are dog tired from making the aforementioned sugar cookies so you can sneak down to beContinue reading “Christmas is Better Sober Because…”
Day Thirty: !!!
I made it! Day 30, my original goal. Here are a few things I am thinking about today as I reflect back on the last month: It has been very up and down. Although one thing has been consistent: a persistent desire to drink that starts around 4:30 or 5 and lasts for a coupleContinue reading “Day Thirty: !!!”
Day Twenty-Eight: Yay mocktails!
I’m nearing my original goal of 30 days, and I’m feeling strong (except for those witching hours in the evening, but I can beat those back now). I’ve now survived a fancy drinks lunch at a nice restaurant with my co-workers. I also had a fancy drink, virgin of course, and I felt still quiteContinue reading “Day Twenty-Eight: Yay mocktails!”
Day Twenty-Five: Quick check-in III
All is well. I told myself that I was going to check in every day for 30 days, but on some days, there is just not much to report! Since it has now been 25 days, I’m going to let myself off the hook. I’ll be checking in now (on my way to 100 days)Continue reading “Day Twenty-Five: Quick check-in III”
Day Twenty-Four: About anxiety
Another long day, and I’m craving wine after work (as usual). But, it’s not too bad today. And by now I know tomorrow will be better. I’ve been thinking a lot about anxiety today and about the connection between anxiety and alcohol. It seems common that people who have decided to quit drinking have experiencedContinue reading “Day Twenty-Four: About anxiety”
Day Twenty-Three: Quick check-in post II
A full and busy day, and I’m super tired in a good way. Still sober. Not too hard today or yesterday. Thank goodness. I had a nice, sober visit with a drinking buddy. I invited her to a movie, and we had a great chat on the way home. It may not make sense toContinue reading “Day Twenty-Three: Quick check-in post II”
Day Twenty-Two: Feeling grateful for sobriety
I really love going to bed early, reading for as long as I feel like it, and that much more relaxed feeling that comes with morning. Yesterday was tough. But only from about 4:30-6pm. I was feeling very strongly like drinking myself into a coma, but then it just started to slowly relax it’s gripContinue reading “Day Twenty-Two: Feeling grateful for sobriety”
