Well, I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, and it hasn’t so far. I’ve been consistently feeling very good for a couple of weeks now with no black clouds in sight. I haven’t had the horrible “witching hour” cravings for ages now, and while I still have a craving now and then, it’s not so bad. I know it is still early days and things change, but it is encouraging!
Last weekend, I was talking to my dad and stepmom, telling them about various things that would normally be very stressful and make me crazy. I realized while talking to them that it just didn’t feel the same. I can handle it. Whatever it is, I’ll figure it out.
And I feel SO MUCH better knowing that I am not still poisoning myself. I’m actually working on my health. For real. I’m exercising some control over the things I can control. I mean, I’m still not doing regular cardio, but I don’t smoke (for almost 10 years now), I’m getting pretty good sleep, I’m eating better (most of the time 🙂 ), I’m stretching … and I’m OK with just adding new things as I am able to. I am going to see my doctor soon, and I am ridiculously excited that I don’t have to stress about how I’ll answer the alcohol question. The answer is 0. That’s all. I really like feeling like I don’t have to hide anything. It’s a good feeling.
Well, that’s the view from day 62.
xoxo
Ms. NL
msnewleaf 
Right on! You truly are in a better place 👍💜
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Thanks, Nelson! 😊💜
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And it’s an excellent view!
xo
Wendy
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❤️
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Great view Ms NL 😊
Really positive post. If I could just get my eating under control .. cut out the sugary crap .. I think I’d feel a bit more ‘sorted’.
I think I’m going to have a ‘craving’ weekend this weekend which is odd when I’ve felt really quite ‘ok’. Perhaps I need to read literature and connect with the sober gang.
Claire xx
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Yeah, I’d like to cut out sugar, but I’m just not ready. 😁 I’m settling for eating less sugar right now and also eating other healthy things, too. I think reading literature as part of your weekend plan sounds great. Helps me most of the time to stay focused. And reach out! Yes! We are all here if you need us. 🤗
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I did. After reading this I decided to post. Best to be honest and get support I guess xxx
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I love it!!! Congrats you are doing amazing!
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Brilliant. Well done 👍🏻👏Jim x
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wowowow congrats, it really sounds like you’re in a great place 🙂 isn’t it crazy how much calmer we get ? xxx Anne
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Yes! I definitely feel calmer most of the time.
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Nice!! Lovely to hear x
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