Wow! It is such a nice day outside! My bedroom is on the 3rd floor of an old house, and I have a lot of windows on the side facing the yard. And it is sunny, blue sky, with birds chirping and insects buzzing, few car sounds. It is glorious.
My boss just emailed that sheโs taking the day off. ๐ฉ but I canโt! Too much work to do. But Iโm making a pledge to go for a walk outside at some point today! Iโve been feeling considerably less ok about being locked up here, working away at the computer, climbing the walls at times.
Going outside makes me anxious, though, but I think it has to be done. All masked up and from a safe distance, of course. Somehow, in all this craziness, Iโve forgotten to take care of me. Again.
Iโm thinking of all of you, and hoping you are ok.
Thereโs a giant purple slug that just inched its way into my room. I think thereโs an 8-year-old girl in there somewhere. Iโm going to investigate!
xoxo
Leafy
Update: Yes, a walk outside was a good thing (although still a little scary because there were a lot of people out – eeek!), but even better was deciding to take the afternoon off and relax. When am I ever going to remember that I have to take time to relax and take care of myself? It always makes everything so much better. And relaxing without alcohol, while once unthinkable, is really the only way to do it right. With booze, I might think I’m relaxed and feel a little euphoric, but it only lasts a bit until I want more, I drink more, and then I feel crappy and, decidedly, NOT relaxed later. NOT refreshed. NOT energetic. NOT ready to take on what is next. Yes, this is better.
Sounds like a lovely day! Take care and enjoy the fresh air! Good luck with the slug ๐
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yes, going outside for my daily walk is one of the only things keeping me sane. If you’re careful, it should be no problem at all ! xxxx Anne
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Definitely get out for that walk. Keep your distance from others and soak up the lovely weather. Make sure you take some rest time. It did me the world of good this weekend. Xx
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I wanted to tell you that your post got me motivated to go outside and I met my mom at a lake with a walking path and really enjoyed getting to talk to her and get some sun on my face, so thanks for the suggestion.
As for everything else, I got the news Saturday that my husbands return was further delayed, and they wouldnโt even give him an end date…just extended orders another 60 days. So I guess I hit a wall, so to speak. I felt a huge sadness, and a complete loss of hope and positivity. Hoping those feelings return but what replaced them were feelings of wanting to drink, to be numb. Proving, of course, that the addictive voice never goes away, and is in fact cleverly opportunistic. Anyway, sorry to ramble. I am NOT going to drink, if for no other reasons than I wouldnโt be able to look my children, or my husband in the eyes ever again. And those are pretty good reasons. Thank you for reaching out and holding me accountable! ๐๐๐
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I am so so sorry! I totally get wanting to numb out. That seems like a pretty natural reaction to such news. The time will pass, of course, but it must seem like an eternity right now. But you are right that you donโt really want to drink and it wonโt really make anything better. And those ARE great reasons. You will get through this. And we are here for you when you need us! โค๏ธ๐คโค๏ธ
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Thank you, Leafy. Your kind words and support mean a lot to me. ๐
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Oh no! Iโm so sorry your husband got delayed again, honey.
Holding you in my heart today.
xo
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Thank you, Wendy. I appreciate you! ๐
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Getting outside has been our constant! Except in Minnesota it snowed again! Lol
I get nervous because some people walk too close to us. So Iโm finding places that are less busy.
xo
Wendy
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Hi Ms Newleaf xx Thank you very much for your blog, I have just read through your journey and I feel very happy and proud for you. Your honesty is appreciated, as I think in my journey I have felt that it is just me, my problem, its seems dark and scary however the more I read other blogs, I often laugh out loud with relief because it may as well have been written by me. I am so grateful please keep writing and thank you x x x
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I am so glad you have found that you are not alone! I find other peopleโs stories so helpful also. Keep writing yourself! It really helps.๐
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Great. Sitting inside reading your post but now Iโm going to put on my sandals and shorts and go for a long walk. Thanks for the shove! It will end one day ๐ Jim x
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I hope you had a terrific walk, Jim! ๐๐ป
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I did ! 6.3 miles, lovely.๐
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I stood outside just after dawn this morning in my pjs breathing in the fresh air. It was wonderful.
I checked out my vegetables and went back inside and back to sleep.
This afternoon I did a ps4 dance game and danced in my pjs.
I danced and I laughed.
Today was a good day.
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Love it ๐
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The slug part cracked me up!! ๐๐๐๐ค
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Somehow that got sent without the intended angel emoji ๐๐ … added now. ๐
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Funny. ๐
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